Blue suburb will take you to a place that is filled with a lonely menace – an oppressive fear that suffocates you as it tells you that no one is coming to save you.
CONTENTS WARNING: Self-hate. But maybe I’m reading it wrong?
It felt like eyes were watching me as I walked around the place. They watched from all corners. They peeked out from the ground beneath my feet. Something was always watching wherever I went. In a place filled with an overwhelming sense of imminent destruction – a world that will constantly be torn apart and reshaped, filled with uncertainty – they will simply watch me. I tried to find a safe place, but I couldn’t. However, none of them seemed interested in helping me. They just watched as I ran, looking for a way out of here. It was like I was some form of entertainment for them. That they just wanted to see me suffer.
This feeling made the eerie atmosphere of the game even deeper. I tried to run away from the spider that beckoned me to come closer, but all roads seemed to lead to him. I find myself in endless halls filled with self-hating images and an internal thought process that wants me to hate myself. It promises some freedom in admitting that I deserve this hatred. That this should be my mantle or legacy, and that accepting it and being consumed by it is the right way to work through it. Fighting this seems exhausting, all roads lead to the spider as I said a moment ago. So why go? Where do I expect to go?
I feel like I have to try. I feel like I need to continue down this path to understand, even if it breaks my heart and requires breaking my soul along with it. Blue suburb it’s a terrifying vision of despair, the bottomless price you pay for being hurt and daring to talk about it, your suffering turned into “content” and so much more. To say that I want to spend more time here would be an understatement. I fear this place. It hurts to stand here and listen. But I feel like I have to live up to it.
And by the end of the demo, there’s an angry hope I’m clinging to. A hope that I want to roar so loud that the Earth shakes.
I have to live to the end.
BlueSuburbia is currently under development, and in the meantime, you can get a demo from itch.io.